Desire ch. 56 - Honeymoon Bliss

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Chapter 56- Honeymoon Bliss
POV: Zac
Word Count: 3453

March 27, 2010 (Saturday)

  I woke up at 9:30 with Emily still curled up beside me and I laid there content to just hold her in my arms all day. We’d done some of the things already, seeing their Zoo was incredible, because they did have animals that our zoo’s didn’t have and we got to hold some, pet them, and interact with them and Emily always loved that. The aquarium was also very nice and the beach side cottage was probably the best thing ever. Much like the one in Cancun this one was one huge room but unlike Cancun, the only private room was the toilet. The garden tub, showers, and sinks were all open to the rest and she’d loved that, being able to watch me shower while she fixes hot cocoa, yet I felt that her shower while I was in the bed was just very evil. The beach was nice as well, large and open but there was a hot tub outside that I wanted to use it tonight and maybe even several more times before we headed home.

Our plans today were nothing. Between the jet lag and the few things we had done we just needed a day or two. She didn’t stir until a little after ten.

“Morning.” I said.

“Morning. You didn’t have to stay ya know.”

“I did, but I wanted too.”

She stretched and sat up, letting the soft curls fall down her bare back. She sat there for several moments before heading to the little cubby room and then she washed her hands and looked at me.

“Are you going to watch me shower again? I have the ability to watch you without getting horny; you apparently don’t have that ability.”

I looked at her stunned. “I could watch you shower if that’s all you do. But, come on you were pretty much masturbating in front of me that I can’t ignore.”

She giggled. “It was obvious my plan worked, it not only got you up but it got you in the shower too. So, are you watching or joining?”

I got up and walked to the little shower area. “Joining.”

It was just a shower though which was fine and we fixed a quick lunch after getting dressed in our bathing suits. We headed to the private beach and for a few hours we swam and cut up in the ocean but then we settled in lounge chairs to rest, sun, and admire the beautiful scenery.

“You know we won’t have this peaceful serene beauty once we get home, right?” She asked.

I sighed heavily. “I know. Promotional trips, Hanson Day, then a world tour, we’ll be back here soon enough.”

“Yeah, but it would be business then and not pleasure.”

I turned and sipped on the soda I had, watched the waves as they crashed up on the shore and left little white bubbles everywhere.

“Zachary.” She said.

I turned and looked at her, smiled when I saw the camera. “Yes?”

“There was something else beside the picture, I need to tell you something and I just didn’t have time before we left really.”

I waited concerned and confused because she normally told me everything, what had she not told me?

“You remember that I saw the doctor before the wedding, you complained because Amanda went with me and no one did, it was the OB I saw.”

“I do recall that, you weren’t gone long but I was a nervous wreck the whole time.”

“I went there for my next shot but I didn’t get the shot Zac.”

I was admittedly confused for a few moments and then it hit me what shot she was talking about, she was referring to her birth control shot. If she didn’t get it, what would that mean?

“Um, are you saying we should be using something now?”

“No. We’re still covered in that department.”

I shifted towards her some. “Why didn’t you get it then? Was there something wrong?”

“Well, I kind of looked up some stuff and while I was there I told the doctor that we wanted to have a baby but not in the next year, we discussed possible options and he recommended coming off the shot and going to pills. I start a pack as soon as we get back, be assured me that I am covered until then.”

“Why switch?”

“Well, the shot requires time to get out of my system and he said it could take months to do that. The pills however can be stopped and the chances of getting pregnant then are a lot higher. We really didn’t talk much about having babies just that you wanted to wait a year.”

“I would like to wait a year, just so that we can kind of settle into being married and not just living together. I also don’t want people to say we got married because you were pregnant.”

“I’m still not sure about this whole Adam thing and kids. But, I am inclined to believe that eight brothers should be enough to protect any child we have.”

I smiled at her. “So, you are taking birth control, just a different brand and the reason is because the shot takes longer, so basically with the pills if we changed our minds in 6 months it would be easier?”

“Pretty much so, I mean what did you think Zac that I was listening to everyone in your family? I wouldn’t do that to you, because having a baby should be our decision and not just mine.”

“Well, you kind of need my help but yeah it would be nice to know that’s the objective. I did have a mini heart attack there though, thanks for waking me up.”

“While we’re just talking I know I mentioned moving, but we didn’t get the chance to discuss that farther in February.”

I looked across the ocean again, considered what she’d said those days in the hospital.

“I think that you had a very good point. The current house is fine at the moment because it is close to work, it’s functional for you and I, and it meets what we needed at the time which was our own place and not someone’s guest room. However, when I consider having a baby there it’s fine for a bit but we really don’t have yard space, we’re very close to a busy street and while I like being close to work it’s not safe with fans if they follow one of us. I mean, fans have already seen the house and it’s just a matter of time and once we have kids, there are fans that are obsessed with getting pictures of our kids.”

“I think for you and I the place we have is perfect, but with babies or toddlers, kids it’s just not. I wouldn’t really know where to look though. I mean, really the two places I’ve lived have been recommended by others, Craig the apartment, you our current house.”

“Well, we won’t be home much of the year but we can look around and see what is available. I think I would really like land, something with a good size yard and private.”

“Privacy is a must. We did a lot of customizing with the current place and I think given your career choice and needs, maybe we should build our own place and just purchase land. We can plan the house and all that while traveling this year.”

I considered that option. “I think I like that option a lot. When we get home after recovering from jet lag, we can take a weekend and look around, see what is there and what areas we like.”

It got kind of quite again, both of us just watching the waves and relaxing, it was nice to be away from computers and on this vacation. I know Taylor and Isaac had some plans these two weeks also for their own families. It was peaceful and it had been months since we had some really decent peaceful moments like this.

“What about Casey?” She asked.

“You got be a little more specific than that.” I replied.

“Well, he hasn’t made any advances and he did tell you he didn’t think we were ready. But, neither of us really talked about it. I’m not him and I can’t do what he can. You haven’t mentioned wanting to be with him, so I wasn’t sure how you felt about it.”

“How do you feel about it?”

She looked at me and I knew I’d put her on the spot with that question, but I wasn’t really sure how to answer her question either, I wasn’t sure how I felt about it.

“I think he was wrong, sure we should have talked about it before we invited him and not afterward but I think as far as being ready we were. Our sexual relationship has never been bad.”

“But if you recall you weren’t very happy the first night.”

“No, but it was insecurities that we both had. Do you think we would have overcome those if Casey hadn’t been there? He basically talked to you and then got us to talk.”

“No.” I replied.

“It doesn’t bother me and really, I’m not a man and I can’t do what he can.”

I giggled. “Do I really need to remind you about December Emily? Surely you don’t believe he made me feel that way, you couldn’t deny that it was you.”

She got up and moved into my lap. “I don’t need a reminder, I was there. I know you enjoyed it your reaction was the same as it was the last time the three of us were together. But, why was it different then? Did it really feel better to you?”

Yeah, that was my on the spot question because even I wasn’t sure. I pulled her close to me and kissed her.

“Because it was you. I know you’re not a man and I don’t ever want you to be. Maybe it was just the different size and the condom did seem to help…”

I was finding it hard to place my feelings into words, so I watched and she tilted her head, clearly confused and waited. I’d never been wonderful with feelings, but I had found it easier to talk to Emily about them than anyone else. She waited knowing and understanding that sometimes I needed to think about it first.

“There was never a time where I didn’t like it with you, the first few times weren’t earth shattering or anything like that, but they weren’t terrible either Emily. I think being with Casey and you watching was what was needed because you didn’t hold back in December like you had before. You did different positions and tried other things. December was different because it was you, I love you Emily and knowing you’re willing to do that for me is nice. You have to remember, you don’t have a time frame like Casey does. Once he gets to the edge, there’s no stopping him.”

“Are you saying I am better because I can just keep going for as long as I want?”

“Yes. I do love Casey but it is not the same way that I do you. I’m not sure that I really would want to be with him again, knowing that you can satisfy that itch better and on many levels. You know I was nervous when you told me to lie down in the floor, but you being on top was probably the hottest thing I’d ever seen. The first time we were with Casey it was new, different, and I’m not saying it wasn’t pleasurable, but knowing that you can do that as well, kind of makes it a mute point.”

She kissed me. “Well, I can’t do two things at once and neither can you.”

I smiled mischievously. “I can, you think I wouldn’t have the coordination to use a toy on you along with myself?”

“I am sure you can, but then it takes away from you. I’m not saying that I absolutely want too either.”

Both of us sat there quietly, lost in our own thoughts of the subject.

“I think what I am trying to say is that I enjoyed it with you because it was you. I love you and I always feel better around you. The simple fact that you’re willing to do it is a sign you love me and it’s not meaningless to you. Does it mean that I wouldn’t follow through with an advance from Casey? No. However, I would if you weren’t there because really I don’t want to be with him without you.”

“I wondered because with him living there now, it’s not like you can escape and let’s face it we’re not quite and you have this way of being sexual without even realizing it. I didn’t want Casey to feel like we were trying to make an advance that we weren’t. I think we need to talk to him about this but this conversation needed to happen first.”

I kissed her again. “I know you kind of felt like you couldn’t, but really Emily you were fine.”

She smiled and kissed my forehead. “Stop lying to me Zac, I can see that up until Casey you didn’t really enjoy it that much. But you did December, so maybe I learned and maybe Casey helped as well.”

“We’ll go with if it happens, ok but it doesn’t happen I’m fine with that too.”

She laid her head down on my chest. “Is everyone at home ok?” She asked.

“Yes. Taylor said they haven’t had any problems and George told them David was at home and that Jason had seen Adam a few times. Maybe they gave up.”

She snorted. “Not likely.”

She lay right there for a little while before she looked up at me.

“How come you haven’t put the gun in my hand yet? You’ve taken me twice a week since I come home but you’ve never let me hold it or fire it.”

“Because while you told me that, I really don’t think that is what you want.”

She sat back up. “I wouldn’t have asked if I didn’t want it Zachary. If you’re going to keep them in the house, I need to know how to properly handle them.”

She had me there and she knew it but then she smiled. “I’ll make you a deal.”

I wasn’t sure I wanted to even ask. “What kind of deal?”

“I’ve been eyeing the skydiving coupon. We do that and if I can actually jump out of a plane then you really teach me, no more excuses. If I can’t, then I won’t ask you anymore.”

“You’re hinging this on you, my crazy wife, jumping out of a plane? I’m destined to lose Emily. But I’ll take your deal anyway.”

Ok, so what if I couldn’t jump? Wait, did I just agree to jump out of a plane?! She smiled at me and lay back down. It was moments like this I’d miss, just being able to sit and hold her. We stayed at the beach most of the day, alternating between sitting in the chairs and relaxing and swimming. We fixed dinner about 5:30 eating on the deck overlooking the ocean and then we found a movie and settle in the sofa, just relaxing some. My phone rang a little after ten and I was confused to see Layla’s name. I hadn’t heard from her in a long time and I turned the phone on speaker phone

“Hey Layla!” we said.

“Um...Hi Zac…and Emily.”

“Where have you been? It’s been ages since you called last and the last three times I called I was sent to voicemail with no return call.”

“I know and I’m sorry Zac. I’ve been very busy with work and personal things. I am so sorry that I missed your wedding, I have the invitation but I just…Honestly it’s been rough the last few months and I really wanted to go but I couldn’t.”

“What’s been going on Layla? You know you could have called either of us.” Emily said.

Layla was quite for several minutes. “I haven’t been in a partying mood really, Markus and I separated and we’ve been trying to work out the problems but he filed for divorce the fifteenth, apparently we cannot work out the problems.”

“Oh man, I’m sorry Layla. You two were such a good couple, what happen?” Emily asked.

She took a deep breath. “Well, I miscarried late last year and we tried to conceive again but it didn’t happen. He blames me for both of those and in January he said something about it, things just escalated from there. Honestly, I’m ok. I think change is good and right now it’s needed.”

“Are you really ok? You sound a little down.” I said.

“I will be fine, I was just sitting here going through the paper from this past week and I saw the article and then freaked out found the invite and realized I truly did miss it. I hadn’t called or anything, I went by your house but some guy named Casey answered, I wasn’t sure if that was the right address still.”

“It is, he moved in with us.” I said.

Emily nuzzled my neck. “I’m getting ready for bed.” She whispered.

I kissed her forehead and she got up, but I could still see her as she changed into a gown, brushed her teeth and let her hair down.

“So, how is everything? You glad to be married again?”

I smiled. “Everything is perfect, I’m more than glad to be married again. It’s been very nice. We’re on our honeymoon and everything is perfect.”

“That’s good, I am really sorry Zac.”

“It’s fine Layla, I mean I know how it can feel to be blamed for something you didn’t do. I just wish you’d called, you were there for me and you knew I’d be there for you.”

“I know but I also know you were busy and did Emily really get shot?”

“Yes. She did, but she’s much better now. What are you going to do?”

“Well, I’m thinking about going to California actually, I need a change and I’ve been looking at job offers there.”

“Cali girl, you would fit in well.”

“I know.  I feel terrible I missed your wedding though. I just…between the divorce and all I just didn’t feel like it and then I forgot. I feel like a ditz.”

“It’s fine Layla, really. I understand and I don’t blame you, I wouldn’t want to be near a wedding if that happened to me. Are you really ok?”

“I am. It’s been hard but I just needed time to heal and move past what happen.”

“I’m sure you’ll be fine, we should be home in a few weeks, and do you want to meet at the diner maybe? Dinner or lunch? We’ve got a busy schedule but I am sure we have to eat.”

“You? Not eat? Please Zac, I know you better than that. Sure, have Emily give me a day and time or you and I’ll meet you guys there.”

“Will do, Hey it’s late where we are, it’s almost eleven actually and we got up rather early. I will call you as soon as we get home and recover from jet lag. Take care of yourself and it’s not your fault Layla, miscarriages happen all the time and you shouldn’t feel guilty about that.”

“I don’t, the doctor said it was beyond my control and that I hadn’t done anything wrong. I don’t know what his problem is, but it’s beyond my control too. I’m sure Mr. Right is out there and right under my nose.”

“I am too. Have a good day Layla.”

“I will, thank you and you have a good honeymoon!”

“Oh, I will.”

She giggled and we hung up, I was glad she giggled some because she had sounded so down. I cut the TV off and got ready for bed, Emily was already lying down and I just stripped down to boxers and curled up next to her.

“You wouldn’t do that would you, leave if I miscarried?”

“No. I find it hard to believe Mark did, I thought he was a great guy. I guess he was just an asshole.”

She kissed me. “Goodnight baby.”

“Goodnight Mrs. Hanson.”

She smiled and got a little closer, she and I both were pretty much asleep minutes later.