Desire Ch. 87 - My Place...

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Chapter 87 – My Place…
POV: Zac
Word Count: 4946
Warning: mild kink, nothing detailed.


August 10, 2012

  I was sitting in our office watching the cameras in our house, ones that no one knew about but us. She and I were the only ones with the password to turn them on and off and right now I had them on so I could make sure she was alright. She was in our bed reading and Casey was in the living room watching a horror movie. I watched as she laid the book down and went for the bathroom that was the 4^th trip in the last hour.

What should have gone away never did, in fact they pretty much put her on bed rest as it seemed to be the only way she could keep things down. She had improved a bit but nothing they gave her worked. She had days where she’d be ok and then days where she barely left the bathroom. Stephanie had stepped up majorly to fill in and so had Velma, I was so proud of them it was unreal, the other employees had also stepped up and were doing extra tasks, but I had noticed some slacking.

I was trying to stay focused on the tasks but I couldn’t concentrate with her at home sick, I felt like I needed to be there that I was needed more at home than I was here. Sure, it meant the record was delayed but what if something really happened? Casey couldn’t always be there either. I finally turned everything in our office off and walked down to Taylor’s office where they were waiting for me anyway.

“What’s wrong?” Ike asked.

“She’s not getting any better; she’s gone to the bathroom 4 times in the last hour to throw up. She didn’t even eat much this morning.”

They both frowned at me and waited after I sat down. She was my wife and it was our son and sure this was just as important for the financial health of our family but what was really important?

“I shut everything down in our office, I am sorry but I am going home to stay with her. I feel so fucking bad leaving her at home when she’s sick like this, I am glad Casey is willing and able to sit with her but he isn’t the father, I am. I’m her husband and I should be there taking care of her. She doesn’t want Casey, she wants me. I know we’re trying to finish the album and get it done, but honestly she needs me more right now and she is more important to me than anything here. I’ll ask her and if she’s ok with it I will just post that I’m needed at home and that she’s having come complications. We’ve already announced she was expecting.”

They looked at one another, I was basically asking for like five months off and it was a long time, but she needed me more.

“Taylor and I were just talking about that. We agree with you and we were actually going to tell you to go home and stay with her. You were patient and understanding those few weeks that we had to stay home with Natalie and Nikki when they were pregnant. We do understand this is more than a few weeks, but you are right. She needs you at home, not Casey. She’s been pretty much ill the whole pregnancy and it’s not getting better. We can always video conference or if she is feeling well, you can come in for a bit but we understand that you need to be at home.” Ike said.

“You’re not mad at me for asking?”

“No, we’re not mad. Go home Zac, take care of your wife and son. You are right, that is where you belong. She has done so much for you and for us that it is time we return the favor. We’re going to take some time off ourselves and we can handle this place. Emily needs you right now a lot more than we do. I am sure the fans will understand. We are thankful that Casey is willing but she wants you.” Taylor said.

“We haven’t even been able to do anything, I feel like we are so unprepared for this.”

“Um, can you clarify your meaning there? If it’s sex, well you’re on your own.” Ike said and laughed some.

“I wasn’t referring to sex. When she feels OK we’re here, when she doesn’t I’m here and she’s at home or we’re both here and she’s on the couch. The only thing we’ve been able to do is choose the room we’re using for the nursery, which Casey cleared out for us last month so we could get it ready, but we haven’t had time to do anything.”

“Zac, she’s due in like two months. Is there anything you have done?”

“No. We don’t have a name yet, we don’t have anything for a baby. She’s been so sick she can’t really ride or walk that much. She looks online but then I’m not there. I just…I need to be at home.”

Isaac got up and hugged me, this wasn’t totally unusual but could be then he kneeled beside the chair. “You don’t have to be afraid Zac. We were told not to say anything but Natalie and Nikki are planning this huge baby shower for her. I believe their even waiving the no men thing because really, Emily doesn’t know very many women. Given the size of our families I am sure you’ll get a lot of what you truly need then. There doing it at the house and everyone has been warned about her being sick.”

“We know it’s your first and you’re nervous.” Taylor said.

“Nervous? Nervous was while she was sick, this is plan dread at the moment.”

“I tell you what, you’re going to be at the house now but if by next month you haven’t gotten the nursery done we will come over and help you. That gives you time to make some plans and all.”

“I may need it for sure, hopefully being at home I can get something done.”

“I am sure Nikki won’t me mind helping either.”

“I just…I don’t know how you two stayed so calm.”

They both laughed. “Calm? Shit Zac I was a nervous fucking wreck. Anytime Nikki so much as sneezed I panicked. You’ve done awesome handling Emily being so sick, I would have broken down months ago.” Ike said.

Taylor smiled at me. “When Natalie told me she was pregnant with Ezra I freaked the fuck out, remember I went away for the weekend? Oh my god I was a wreck. I needed that weekend to center and kind of absorb the information. The closer she got the more nervous and wrecked I was. I had no idea what to do and we had label issues. You and Emily are ready for this Zac, sure it’s not a smooth ride but when have you two done anything that didn’t require a sledge hammer and a bulldozer?”

I raised an eyebrow at him, mostly because he was right. We’d never done anything the easy way from getting together to handling Adam and David. Although, I’m not sure I’d have used the sledge hammer and bulldozer as a comparison.

“I hope your right.”

They smiled. “We’re your older brothers, we’re always right.”

“Not always.” I pointed out.

They both gave me very rib crushing hugs and then basically kicked me out of the studio. Part of me wanted to feel hurt by that but they were telling me to go home. I went by the flower shop again and bought blue roses, they were closer to her favorite than anything. I knew Casey was there but I also knew he wouldn’t be in the bedroom unless she’d called for him. When I got home Casey was still in the living room, asleep on the couch so I left him alone and went up-stairs. Emily was reclined back in the bed and awake, she smiled when I came in.

“Are those for me?”

“Of course they are! Who else would they be for? I’ll put them in the vase in a moment.”

I laid them down on the foot of the bed and went around to her side, she’d began to show very well at this point and while she complained I thought she looked beautiful, yet my son was stubborn as hell as she’d felt him moving and kicking but every time I try, he just stops. He doesn’t make any movements. It was so unfair! Yet, not even Casey had felt him move or anyone else that tried, she was the only one.

“Do you feel ok?” I asked.

“I am sure you’ve been watching Zachary.”

“Well, I have and I saw you get up for the 4^th time. I shut everything down and went to Taylor’s office.”

“I called your mom and asked if she could call around and see if there was anything that can be recommended. She called back and said one of your aunts recommended ginger ale and crackers, luckily we had both and Casey brought me some. It seems to be helping actually.”

She looked flushed to me though so I felt for a fever and she looked at me quizzically.

“Isn’t that my job?”

“For the next few months it will be mine. Who knows, I may even buy more scrubs.”

She smiled. “Why are you home Zac? You’re supposed to be recording an album.”

I moved some of the hair from her face, god it felt so soft in my fingers.

“I am here because you need me more right now. I know neither you nor Casey minds sitting here but it’s not Casey’s place to be here with you. I am your husband and his father and it’s my responsibility to take care of you. Besides, they were about to kick me out anyway because I spend most of the day worrying about you. Ike said we can video conference and if there are days you feel up to it, we can go in but it’s not required.”

She smiled at me; I loved that smile even more now. “It wasn’t right of me to ask you to stay home.”

“You don’t have too. Um, Taylor and Isaac offered to help next month with the nursery if we can decide a theme. But, I love them but that is something I really want to do myself, with your help of course. I realized earlier we are not prepared for this at all.”

“Well, most couples aren’t as busy as we are or as sick as I’ve been. Natalie actually called and asked if we had a theme, I get a feeling she’s planning a shower. Avery called last week though asking if we were registered somewhere and what we needed. I hope Nikki and Natalie did something because I just feel like I have no fucking clue what I’m doing.”

“Ike said she and Nikki were doing one, but we’re not supposed to know. You can call Natalie and talk to her.”

“Actually, what I want is a long bathe, but I didn’t want to call Casey up.”

“He wouldn’t have minded.”

She smiled and this time moved some of my hair which I purred at because damn it felt good. “I know he wouldn’t have minded, but I can’t get in the tub alone. I would honestly rather you be the person helping me in and out. Besides, I know how hard it is for you to get flowers and come home. I don’t want to hurt you by making you think something is occurring when it’s not.”

“I trust you and Casey Emily; I know you’re not going to do that unless I am here.”

“Speaking of Casey, I’d like to ask you about something. He’s been such a great friend to us and he’s been so helpful both in the stalking crap and this. How do you feel about asking him to be his godfather?”

I paused to think about that for several minutes. “I think that is a great idea. How about I run you a bath and get you comfortable and then we can talk to him afterwards?”

She sat up some, grabbed my collar roughly and pulled me in for a kiss, only she didn’t quite let me go. Instead she leaned back and pulled me down beside her and her hand went right to my crotch. “Jesus Ems!”

“Oh come on you can’t deny anything; I can feel you already against my hand.”

“What about Casey? He’s asleep downstairs.”

“If he walks in maybe he can join.”

I looked at her confused for a moment before I gave in, it’s not like I could really deny her anything she wanted, it was clear this was something she wanted. I’ll admit it was different than anything we’d done before as after she screamed, which was louder than even I remember, Casey came running in and not knowing I was home he picked up the roses from the foot of the bed and proceeded to beat me with them. Telling me to get off of her, the thorns hurt like hell when they hit my ass and back.

What did my wife do? She laughed hysterically at the scene before her.

“Casey! It’s me! It’s Zac! Fuck! Stop!” I yelled.

He finally stopped hitting me with the decimated roses now. Fucking hell those were pretty roses but they hurt like hell!

“Damnit Zac! What the fuck are you doing home?”

I finally moved away from him, putting myself off the bed and beside it. It put me far away from the handful of now thorny vines he held.

“Can you put those damn things down first? Holy fuck, I think you left thorns in my ass. Dude, who the fuck picks up roses to beat off an attacker, what were you going to do thorn me to death?”

Emily still just laughed and while it was great to hear her laughing, it was not funny!

“Well, it was the first thing I picked up! What the hell are you doing here? You scared the hell out of me, I heard her scream and thought something was wrong and all I saw was hair and nakedness and I thought…”

“I came home and she just dragged me down. Ems, it wasn’t that funny.”

“Yes it was, all I seen was flying blue streaks and then your screaming and jumping. Funny. As. Hell!”

He finally lay what was left down on the bed, just thorns and vines.

“So…Zac are you alright?” he asked.

“The stinging pain all across my back and ass, and even my thigh probably means no.”

He was still on my side of the bed, kneeling there and he motioned me to come forward and I carefully moved forward to lie down and I heard Emily gasp some as I did so.

“Oh fuck.” Casey said.

“What?” I asked.

“I’ll get the first aid kid…but I’ll let Emily deal with that.”

“What did you do?!” I asked.

I felt Emily’s hand on my ass. “The thorns left some scratches in places there slightly bleeding. You were also right; there is a thorn right here in your ass.”

Yep. Hurt like hell when she removed it and even cleaning the others hurt. “I still want my bathe and now I need one. Casey, would you like to join us?”

“I’d have preferred to join before hand, but sure I’ll go run the water.”

“You’re not pissed at him?”

I turned and looked at her. “As badly as my backside hurts right this moment, no, I’m not. He didn’t know it was me and well, I’d pity anyone else who did make you scream, because they’d be beaten with roses. Besides, he got you to laugh.”

She smiled and I got up, helped her up and we went to the bathroom. The water didn’t feel good on those scratches but it eased after a few moments.

“So, Zac, why are you home? Surely nothing at the studio made you horny enough to come home.”

“I came home to be with her, she needs me more right now anyway and I’m worthless at the studio unless she’s there. Taylor and Ike were about to kick me out anyway so we agreed we can video conference or something.”

“You are relegating me back to the studio?”

“Afraid so, they can use you a lot more there though really.”

He smiled and I felt his foot against my leg. Emily looked pretty relaxed in the corner; the water usually helped her not be as sick.

“It’s a good decision though because she really wants you here, I can tell. I’m good, but not that good.”

“Your omelets are awesome that is when they’re going down, coming back up is a totally different story.”

His foot slipped up my right leg. “There was something we wanted to ask you, you have until he decides to arrive to answer. Emily and I would like you to be his godfather, your more like a brother to us really and you do so much for us.”

His foot paused and he looked between us. “Really? You’re not kidding?”

“We are not kidding. You are a remarkable friend to us both and you’re not getting rid of us and we don’t expect you to disappear once he’s born.” Emily said.

He smiled. “I don’t need to wait until he’s born to answer that; I’d be honored to be his godfather.”

Again, Casey’s foot was moving against my inner thigh and I looked at him. “You know your toenail just jab into my leg.”

“I was trying to get your attention, evidently it worked.”

“Now, why would you want my attention?”

He glanced at Emily who was relaxed back against one of the jets on low, but she was watching us.

“I’m content here; he’s taken care of me. Mind you Casey, he didn’t come home to attack me. I attacked him.”

“Well damn I thought he came home that way.”

“Afraid not, what can I say? He brought me roses, which he then got beaten with and he was being all sweet and stuff and I just had to have him. Well, not that he denied anything.”

“You’ve been sick so much I’ve been afraid to even hint.” I said.

I looked at Casey. “I get the feeling it’s you and not me.”

I really didn’t expect him to move so quickly into my lap, which kind of spooked me a moment because he’d never done anything like this before but he didn’t move in for anything, just sitting there. I carefully moved my hands to his thighs, laying them there.

“I can’t read your mind Casey; you have to kind of tell me what you want.”

He looked at Emily and then me. “Hey, it’s fine by me.”

I saw him bite his bottom lip, wasn’t quite as sexy on him to me as it was when Emily did that, but it was a good comparison. He was being quiet still and he was rarely that way. I slid my hands up his thighs, around his hips, and to his ass where I pulled him all the way against me. He gasped at that.

“You have to tell me what you want.”

“You.”

“That much I figured out already.”

I could feel him against me already; clearly he wanted more he just didn’t want to ask. I leaned forward and placed a few well placed kisses to his neck. Emily turned the jets on where I was sitting and I nearly jumped and she just smiled, I couldn’t deny that jets in the tub were better than a hot tub. She moved and I felt her hand on my inner thighs and felt the water shift from me to him which elicited a soft moan from him. I could feel the water swirling around him and between us. Emily returned to her seat afterwards.

I focused on his neck though, circling the places I knew that worked well nipping some areas and even biting some areas, all things he liked. He finally dropped his head on my shoulder and I went after the side near me.

“Zachary….”

“Yes?”

“Can you…like…I don’t know…do more?” he stumbled over the words.

I moved my hands down just a bit and squeezed. “Like this?”

“More.”

I sunk my teeth into the soft patch on his neck and he cried out in a good way. “Like that?”

“No! You know what I want.”

I slid my left hand down, let a finger just trace the entrance and he moaned loudly. But when I didn’t do anything else I heard him sigh.

“Please Zachary.”

It was rude to make him beg but he had left scratches all across my back with the vines. He moaned loudly when I slipped a single finger into him. It hadn’t been extremely long ago but long enough to do this properly, the position was good because the jets helped but I kept his hands on my arms. I vaguely heard Emily giggle when I stopped him but I ignored her. Two fingers got a louder moan from him and three got a great response. I kept there for a while basically until he begged me to move on. The problem was impromptu meant I had no idea if we had condoms anywhere. Emily must have know because she came over and whispered something in Casey’s ear and he moved out of my lap and he moved quickly into the bedroom, nearly slipping on the tile. I found Emily’s hand around me not even ten seconds after he left, not that I really needed any foreplay. I knew the drill now with water sex and applied the condom standing up; Casey went to the side and leaned there.

“Needy.” I said.

“Horny.” Emily said.

I still wasn’t quite totally use to this feeling, pushing into him versus her. Wasn’t quite as soft of a feeling, but still good and he was just like her sometimes, needy and wanting more. Emily resumed her seat and just watched. I had no hope of lasting as long as normal, maybe if I hadn’t come home to a horny wife and friend I might have done better, but I’d done well working him up. Eventually I did sit back down and he climbed into my lap. Letting him set the pace and then matching it when he asked me to. I must admit, being able to make them both scream was quite an ego booster for anyone. I didn’t even mind when he sat there for a bit until he could move.

“I feel kind of used.”

Emily laughed. “You love it and you know you do!”

“It’s probably the best welcome home I could ask for. Anyways, you ready to get out?”

“Yeah, I just needed to wait on you two.”

Casey smiled. “What can I say, after realizing it wasn’t some strange guy that made it into the house I realized who and what happen and yeah you were naked in front of me.”

Casey and I got out first and both of us helped her out and to the bedroom where there was carpet, no slipping from her. Emily got dried off by us and then she got dressed, she then put a bandage on one or two places on my back.

“Damn Casey, not even I’ve had to bandage him up afterwards. This mark is your fingernail.”

He smiled some. “What can I say?”

Casey and I fixed dinner while Emily sat in the living room, using my video game to access the internet and look at what she might like for a nursery theme. But, the vision was already in my mind, it was just wondering if she would like it. We ate dinner and then Casey said he was actually going home, he hadn’t really been there in two or three weeks. Once we said our byes we settled on the sofa so she could show me the different themes she’d found.

Yet, there was something about every one of them that she didn’t like or flat out hated. She complained about Winnie the Poo being way to yellow, the train theme she didn’t like, the teddy bears looked scary, she was complaining about Mickey Mouse being way to dark when she stopped mid-sentence and got my hand. I didn’t quite understand why until she pressed it to her stomach.

I felt something and then a pause and then it felt like something pushed against my hand. It took me a moment to realize it was my son, he was moving around and I could feel him. Tiny little movements and I couldn’t tell it was a hand or a foot.

“That is incredible.”

“It would be better if he wasn’t kicking my ribs or bladder or kidney.”

I giggled. “Not much longer and he’ll be kicking in warm pajamas.”

“Pajamas we don’t have?”

“Yeah. So, you haven’t liked anything themes wise. What about like the crib did you have something in mind?”

She moved to lie down; putting her head in my lap and then started showing me the various crib sets she had seen. The one she seemed to like the best was a light tan color and I picked up on the fact that what she’d complained about the most was dark colors.

“Is there a reason why you don’t want the nursery to have darker colors?”

“I want it to be happy, upbeat, something whimsical and playful. I like the themes just some are dark.”

It got quite and absentmindedly started playing with her hair, letting sections glide through my fingers, it felt like cotton and I know understood why she did this to me so often. I was thinking about what she’d said.

“Zachary?” She asked.

I looked down and found her to be content. “Yes?”

“You keep doing that; you’ll be carrying me up the steps.”

“I don’t care; I’ll carry you if I have too.”

“So, what are you thinking about?”

I pulled up the set she’d like, tan wood. “Buy that one with an extra dresser.”

“Are you sure? We haven’t got a theme yet, what if it clashes?”

I smiled. “You trust me right?”

“Of course I do Zac.”

“Leave the theme to me then, you can pick out the car seats, strollers, bouncers, toys whatever you want. But, leave the theme to me. I’ll be home every day so I can work on the nursery and be here for you as well.”

“Are you sure? I can be quite needy.”

I smiled. “I’m sure.”

“Ok.” She said.

I watched her order the furniture along with a rocking chair and groaned as I remembered who would have to put that together.

“What?”

“Just remembering who has to carry it up-stairs, assemble it, and figure out where it goes and that’d be me.”

“You know you can have help, I can probably help too, depending.”

“No. I’ll handle it. I mean, I’ve waited so long to have these moments and I’m not giving them up.”

She smiled. “Well, furniture is ordered. We have a place to put everything. I started a registry also and added the basics stuff. I haven’t decided on breast or bottle feeding and I wanted to talk to your Mom and Nikki and Natalie.”

“Yeah, I have no clue on that.”

“I know.”

“How is Maddi?”

“She’s doing well but um I’d like to get her something for her baby. I’m not sure what yet though, maybe get like a basket of things or something. It’s just her and Max there.”

I smiled. “I’m glad you’re getting along with her, how much have you really told her about what happen?”

Emily took a deep breath. “Honestly? Not much more than I did to start with. I told her you were my first and that when we got together it was complicated, I told her about the attack that February but I didn’t provide a lot of detail just they had hurt me and raped me. I didn’t tell her the reason behind those attacks; I told her you saved me. I mentioned some touring and how Paul did. I haven’t told her much beyond that. I’m still getting to know her. I mean I’m still using e-mail. I think I’m worried about her stalker deal too.”

“You said he was in jail though.”

“Yeah, I’m just not sure about it.”

“Baby if she’s being watched then we shouldn’t…”

“He’s in jail Zac and it doesn’t sound like the same thing we went through. I think she’s nice and it does give me someone to talk too since Amanda’s obviously not moving out, she keeps putting it off. Nikki and Natalie understand but Maddi can relate to the events better.”

“Well, if he comes after her again then you and I aren’t going to be around. We don’t need any drama and with little drummer boy coming we can’t risk it.”

“I know anyway, I think I’m ready for bed. I’m glad dinner stayed down.”

“Me too, because I’ll need to plan the nursery and then shop tomorrow, I’d like to get it done before September so we can focus on getting what we need.”

“Goody.”

We went to bed about twenty after ten and I was glad she didn’t get that night.