Infinity Chapter 36 - You trust me, right?

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Chapter 36 – You trust me, right?
POV:  Emily
Word count: 5344

October 6, 2013
The last two shows had been admittedly better, Zac wasn’t quite as distant and we’d talked more about LA and the messages, instead of trying to hide them from me I saw them when no one was around. We were in Sherwood Park in Canada but today we were taking a special drive to Edmonton. The hotel was nice but we were sharing again, so it wasn’t like I could do much. My morning had consistent of getting Alexander showered, dressed and ready for the day even though he would be much too young for the event. Taylor and Isaac agreed to watch him for us. I handed him over to Uncle Taylor at 9 with plenty of milk, snacks, and his lunch. We should clearly be back before dinner.
Casey was blindfolded in the car on the drive and he was very nervous. Robert was with us though because in our conversations over time I had learned that Robert was a skydiving trainer and I knew if anyone could convince Casey it was him. Zac’s plan was to stay on the ground. Zac parked in the parking lot and we got out, Robert was guiding Casey to the front of the car.

“Why do I hear planes?” Casey asked.

I took the blindfold off and let him see the sign. “Because you’re at a small airport.”

“Emily…” he said.

“I know you’re afraid of heights but you fear doesn’t prevent you from riding roller coasters, which you made me ride despite my fear.”

“But…”

“Don’t worry Casey, your tandem jumping.” Robert said.

“I am, with whom? I am damn sure not jumping with Zac.”

“No, you’re jumping with me, why do you think I’m here? She knew you’d be afraid to do this and that your fear could be bad. So, when I mentioned it she asked if I would tandem with you.”

He looked at me. “He’s an instructor Casey, it’s my punishment but he’ll make the final decision. I believe you’ll absolutely love it, but Robert promised that if he felt it would hurt you or if he thought that you just wouldn’t make it, he wouldn’t make you.”

“You’re an instructor?”

“Yep. I’ve been skydiving since I was 18.”

Casey looked at me and then him. “You promise you won’t jump out if I tell you not too?”

“I promise to not jump if it really does feel like you just can’t handle it. I expect you to tell me no.”

He looked back and forth a few times. “What about Zac? Come on Emily, he hide everything from us.”

“Damn Casey, I screamed at him for like 30 minutes.”

Casey pouted and it was cute, but Zac had said he didn’t want too and I wasn’t going to punish him for that because I felt like my over reaction was plenty, added they didn’t know about the LA accident so I thought he’d been punished enough.

Zac looked at him. “Will you jump unless Robert believes it will hurt you, if I do?”

“Yes.”

“What the hell, not the first or second time.”

That settled we went inside and they set me up as a tandem because I had the experience but Zac didn’t, so they didn’t want him to be alone. He just didn’t know he’d be strapped to me until after we were in the plane, Casey was secured to Robert and he looked terrified.

“Shouldn’t I be like attached to someone?” Zac asked.

I pulled him back against me. “You will be with me.”

“You?”

“You trust me, right?”

He smiled at me. “You know I do.”

I attached him to me tightly, Robert and Casey went first, I actually heard Robert ask him if he trusted him, neither of us believed that he would, but Robert sat there for a bit and then they were gone. Zac seemed very nervous when we were sitting on the edge of an opened door, over 5,000 feet above the ground.  The drop was amazing with the views and the open landscape of Canada. I landed us safely on the ground; kind of Zac tripped on something and went down, taking me with him.

“Least I got a soft landing, are you ok?”

“I am.”

I unhooked us and got up, helped him up. Robert was standing with Casey who looked a little green so we walked over.

“Are you ok?”

“He was fine until I released the parachute, that sudden upward swing done it. He did good though, didn’t scream.”

I smiled and we went back to the building to remove the gear. We’d used our own Go Pro cameras so we saved on that. Casey was glad to be out of the harness and set up. We stopped on the way back to the hotel for lunch, Casey was better by then.

“Did you at least enjoy it?”

He smiled. “Why is it I enjoy all your punishments? You do know the purpose of a punishment is to not enjoy it?”

“Oh come on Casey, you know how I operate. We’re adult’s dude, punishments aren’t meant to be correcting anything. Well, ok in some cases they are.”

“Geez Casey how often has she had to punish you?” Robert asked.

Zac laughed but stopped when Casey looked at him. “Not as much as Zac has been that’s for sure.”

“I’m a bad boy what can I say.” Zac said, he’d used this really seductive tone and even if it did crap to them, it surely worked for me.

“You definitely are.” I said.

“I don’t believe that one bit, you’re just way to damn sweet and innocent to be that bad, Casey here I believe he’s a bad boy.”

“He called you sweet and innocent Zac how does that feel?”

“He’s been anything but sweet and innocent since he met me.” I replied

“It’s not my fault you got me all addicted to spankings and drumsticks and let’s not even count the strap-on you bought.”  Zac said.

Robert choked on the tea he’d just attempted to swallow, Casey stared blankly and I just blinked.

“Robert, are you ok?” I asked.

“Yeah, I just…there is no way I heard him correctly.”

“You heard me just fine.”

Robert sat there stunned and confused and our plates arrived, we ate silently and Robert didn’t comment on Zac being innocent until we were back in the car, I was driving back and he leaned forward.

“So, tell me that he was just trying to shock me in there. I mean I heard him say the strap on you bought.”

I looked at him. “You heard him right.”

Zac put his seatbelt on and looked at him. “Not quite so sweet and innocent am I? I wasn’t kidding when I said I was a bad boy.”

“Fuck...Casey what the hell man! You’re his best buddy and you didn’t tell me anything about this. Given your lack of shock, I assume you knew about her affliction?”

I laughed. “He should, he bought the second one I owned complete with attachment.”

I heard the pop and Casey’s yelp. “What was that for?”

“All this time you’ve known about her afflictions?”

“There not her afflictions Robert, they weren’t bought for me to use they were bought for her to use on me.” Zac said.

Apparently Robert had not connected the dots between why I would need a strap on when I was married to a man. He was quiet for a little bit letting that sink in and I could also see him shifting in the seat. He was capable of having the same vivid images but how would Casey feel about that? A quick glance in the mirror showed him to be shifting too. I guess they worked well for both of them.

“To answer your question Robert, I introduced that to him.” I said.

“You did introduce it but I told you to call Casey and agreed to that, it wasn’t entirely your fault.”

I tried to stop him before he said it but I couldn’t and heard the gasp.

“You called Casey?!” Robert asked.

“Zac, you need to stop sticking your foot in your mouth.” I said.

“Hey, if he’s going to be dating my best friend he needs to know how much of a freak his friends are. Mind you, I’m not going to tell you everything.”

I parked in the hotel parking lot at 1:45, I was sure Alexander was sleeping and really the jump and the tone he’d been using and I was sure Casey and Robert wouldn’t mind the privacy either. I was about to speak when Zac smiled.

“You two go have fun but stay on your own bed; we’ll just lounge on the bus for a bit.”

“Are you sure?” Casey asked.

“Take the chance Casey, I may not offer it again.”

He got out of the car and walked to the bus, Casey and Robert both looked at me confused.

“I guess enjoy a few hours…”

I got out and they went inside and I went to the bus where he was waiting and we got on. I was confused on why he’d just offered them the chance. He got water from the kitchen area and then headed up-stairs, so I got a bottle of juice and followed. He went to the office area and sat down.

“Any define reason why you came here?” I asked.

“Quiet. No one else is here and I’m sure Alexander is asleep anyway.”

“Aren’t we kind of using Tay then?”

He smiled. “Taylor said he wanted to keep him all day, I guess he figured we’d be gone a lot longer.”

I sat down at the end of the sofa, laid my feet in his lap; he actually removed my shoes and was kind of massaging my ankle.

“I got the feeling you wanted to talk privately, otherwise you wouldn’t have minded going inside.”

“You seemed a little confused by my openness with Robert.”

“I am I mean we don’t know about the other people.”

“It’s not Robert Emily. I know he’s looked at me before, I’ve seen the looks. But, the way he acted when Ryan snatched the toy from Alexander isn’t the way Ian acts or refers to Alexander. Ian basically doesn’t care about anyone but me; he only cares about the two of you when he wants me to do something.”

“Like send nude photos.”

“Yeah. I know it’s not Robert we’ve been sharing a room with them and really he might look and I have no doubt that it might be a turn on to him, but he doesn’t want to hurt me and he seems to be really good with Alexander.”

“Ok. You could have told me that inside.”

For several minutes he just rubbed my ankle, staring at his hands and he was quite confused when I moved my right leg behind him, but he caught on when I gently pulled at his belt, he slid closer and it allowed me to kind of hold him there.

“I think your procrastinating about telling me what you want to say. It’s ok Zac; you can tell me whatever you want.”

“You remember what you had me do after Gary and Adam?”

“Yes, I asked you to purposely recreate some of the things but only doing them in a more positive manner.”

“I know you can’t recreate the entire thing, obvious reasons. But, some of it you can.”

I leaned forward and put my arms around him too. “You want me to pin you to a wall and do whatever I want?”

He blushed a bit. “Basically. I know it wasn’t my fault but Emily I should have done more to stop him. I didn’t even try to get away at first, just followed.”

I softly kissed his cheek, feeling the warmth in them. “You did what you thought was best to keep Alexander and I safe. You can’t know whether or not he would have actually done what he said Zac. If you had run he could have shot you and then killed us then again he may have just run the other direction. Based on his commanding tone in his messages I’m betting he would have done what he said.”

“I messed up by not telling anyone, didn’t I?”

I pulled him close and he turned for the hug. “In some way, yes. You should have told us and the police should have been informed. But from what you told me, they wouldn’t have anything to go on anyway.”

“I can still feel his hands, the roughness of them. I can’t get it to go away. I cringe anytime anyone but you or Alexander touches me. I know Taylor, Isaac and Casey are noticing.”

I tightened my arms, doing my best for a bear hug but they never were as tight as his. One of the things he’d said was the way he kissed his neck and I felt him slightly jump when I placed a kiss there. I waited a few moments before doing it again. I moved my hand to pull his hair back and lightly let my fingers scrape across his skin, felt the shiver.

I let my hand fall to his thigh and after several moments I undid the belt so I could untuck his shirt.

“You don’t have to be against something, unless you just want to be.”

“I’m ok right here.”

There was a fine line between recreating an event such as that, I had found that if we weren’t in the same place, location, and position it helped more. Hopefully, the same held true to him. I moved carefully, gauging his reaction. Yet, I knew he was liking this more by the soft moans that slipped from his lips and the erection I could see, I slipped the button up shirt off and was about to remove the second one when his phone went off. He groaned against my neck but I got it first.

“Just relax.”

The message asked why he had gone skydiving when he didn’t much like it, I leaned down and nipped his neck kind of lightly, it was clear the phone didn’t matter anymore, his hands tightened on my shirt and a moan fell from his lips and I smiled, hit reply.

I had no choice, it was either go with her and do what she said, or she was going to take my phone away. I figured you wouldn’t appreciate if she had my phone. As a second task I am doing paperwork and she’s really watching, so I can’t really reply much.

I then turned the volume down and laid the phone to the side. I slipped my hand under the second shirt and lifted it over his head. The look on his face was very familiar to me, one that Ian would probably never see. It wouldn’t take much to push him over the edge, what done it was my nails running down his spine.

“I think you ma…”

He shut me up with a direct and forceful kiss to the lips, something we’d not really done much of since the tour started. Whatever thought was there completely faded and I didn’t think of anything else but the way he was kissing me, the way his hands moved on my body. It didn’t even matter that when he came at me I narrowly missed cracking my head open on the wall.

Neither of us really realized how much we needed it, how much we missed the sex, or how much we missed just the closeness. The weeks of stress, worries, lack of talking, and the doubts and concerns just melted away. It was different because we didn’t really consider being careful, I could feel the pain and it didn’t bother me. Likewise, I was sure the new scratch marks were something he felt.

We were laying in the floor trying to regain our breath, clinging to one another because his fingers were still pretty tight on my hip, which was fine with me.

“Were you going for some marathon?” I asked.

“Maybe…It’s not like the idea of crawling down into your bunk didn’t occur to me. I am sure I could have found something to stop screams.”

I smiled and kissed him several times. “I know I will have bruises this time.”

“Hey! I feel the stinging on my back.”

I slide my fingers across his side. “Not that you mind.”

“You just accused me of aiming for a marathon, yet you do that?”

He just moved over me when my phone rang and it was Taylor’s ring tone, he told me to ignore it as he went after my neck.

“Baby, that’s Taylor and he has our son.”

“He has horrible timing.”

It took him several minutes to figure out where the phone was and by then I had to call back.

Zac was still kissing my neck when Taylor answered.

“Hey Tay.” I said. I suppressed the moan that threatened to follow his name, could tell that made Zac smile.

“I should really come there and yell at both of you for having sex on the bus. But, considering when I went to knock three hours ago I heard Robert yell out, I assumed they were occupied as well. But, it’s after 5 and Alexander will want dinner soon, I would like dinner as well. How about you both shower really well, get dressed and we can all go get dinner at 6:30?”

“How did…”

“Are you kidding me? I saw you both go to the bus hours ago. I am not stupid. Just please tell me you weren’t in the kitchen.”

“No and I’ll clean up.”

I felt Zac against my inner thigh, shit I had to get Taylor off the phone, as Zac wasn’t going to stop.

“6:30, we’ll meet you at the car.”

“Ok.” He said and then he then hung up.

We really didn’t have time for another round, but it just meant quicker showers and less cuddle time, who cared? Even if it meant I’d probably have a few more bruises and he’d have a few more scratches which is exactly what happen.

“You know we need to go in now?”

“Do I have too? I kind of like holding you here, all naked and warm.”

I kissed him. “If we don’t, Taylor’s very liable to beat both our asses. Besides, you can hold me all night if you want.”

We carefully got up and I felt it. “Definitely bruised.”

“Sorry.”

“Don’t, you should see your back.”

We quickly threw on clothes, we didn’t have but like 40 minutes to shower and get dressed so neither of us bothered with underwear or bras or shoes for that matter. I’d come back after Alexander was asleep and clean up. Zac only put the button up shirt on and it was off the moment he was in the room.

Casey glanced up from his watch. “Taylor is going to fucking kill you both!”

I took my shirt off and threw it at him. “Can you get us something to wear?”

He rolled his eyes and I went into the bathroom, double showers were quick especially when we both knew we didn’t have time for anything else. He sent me first since I would have more to put on. Casey had laid my clothes in the bathroom, so I dried off right quick and at got dressed.

“You have underwear here, but I’ll find you clothes.”

Casey had chosen shorts for me and I came out not thinking about them and went to Zac’s suitcase to find him pants and shirts.

“What the hell happen to your legs?” Robert asked.

I didn’t even have time to answer. “You don’t need an answer to that.” Zac said.

“How much time do we have?”

“Fifteen minutes.” Casey said.

“Ems, you’re going to need longer shorts.” Robert said.

“You think I care if anyone sees them? I know where and when and why.”

Yet, I was completely forgotten when Zac dropped the towel that was on his shoulders to put his shirt on.

“Fuck Zac, did a cat get a hold of you?” Robert asked.

I smiled and then meowed. Zac and Casey just laughed as Robert looked confused.

“No way she did that…”

“She’s the only one that’s allowed to do that, not even Casey has.”

“He left them on me.” Robert said.

Casey’s turn to blush, I quickly brushed my tangled hair and all Zac did was run his fingers through his a few times.

“He does that shit on purpose.” Casey said.

“No kidding. But, we can’t strip him again, we need to go!” I said.

Everyone was in the lobby when we arrived; Alexander was on Ike’s shoulders and squealed when he saw us. Zac went over and relieved Ike of the squealing and squirming toddler. Taylor didn’t even look mad. We were waiting for Taylor to tell us where we were going when Jared slapped Zac on the back and he actually yelped, I mean his entire upper back did look like a cat got a hold of him.

“Sorry! I didn’t mean to slap that hard.”

“No, it’s not that, just she kind of left scratches down my back and there kind of sore.”

“Ouch, why did she scratch you?”

Zac gave him a confused look. “Um, I’m sure you can figure it out.”

He paused. “Oh…OH!! Well, glad it was good at least.”

“Always is.”

After getting the where we left, Robert and Casey rode with us, entertaining Alexander in the back seat. When we sat down Zac put Alexander between us, but he was sitting kind of sideways, and a quick glance revealed that his leg was behind the high chair, preventing anyone from coming up behind him. I gave Alexander rutabagas, which he seemed iffy on. He didn’t quite seem to like them but ate them anyway. He also had some more of his favorites as well, mashed potatoes and peas.

Dinner went really well considering, nothing weird and when we got back Zac went up with Alexander and I went to clean the bus right quick. It really didn’t take long to clean the area, a little mopping for the floor and wiping the seats off, we’d spent more time in the floor. It was the blinking that caught my attention, shit! We’d completely forgotten Zac’s phone. I picked it up and there were no calls, but there were messages. They weren’t that bad really, but the last one was an up-close picture of the back of my legs, we were actually standing at the restaurant.

Hmm, I’m no expert but did you maybe lose your cool Zachary? Awfully deep bruising for such a short period…

I wondered if he would post them on the internet, but none of the other private ones had showed up and this one was also marked with the infinity symbol. I put his phone in my pocket, finished and went to the hotel room. Zac was in the bathroom and Alexander was in the tub. I sat down on the end of the bed.

“You look a little defeated.” Casey said.

“Just tired, it’s been a long productive day.”

I went ahead and fixed the crib the hotel had provided and had it ready, it was close to his normal bedtime. I had just sat down when Alexander came running out of the bathroom and streaked across the room, Zac came crawling out, and he’d evidently been in the floor.

“Geez he’s gotten quick.”

“Yep.” I said.

He got up and wrangled him and pretty much fought with him to get him dry, diapered, and dressed. Zac really was patient when he needed to be, yet Alexander also heard that warning tone when he got tired of fighting. He played for a little bit longer but about 9:45 he crawled into my lap.

“Just like your daddy, you only come to me when you want something.”

“I don’t always want something when I come to you! Besides, what he wants is to nurse before bed. I don’t do that.”

I rolled my eyes, Robert had been around before when I nursed, so he just turned away until he was latched and then he’d watch TV.

“How come Casey doesn’t turn away?” he asked.

Casey looked at him. “There’s nothing about either of them that I haven’t seen already, touched, or more.”

“Wait…now you told me you and Zac were together sexually, but you didn’t say anything about her!”

“Who did you think I had a threesome with dude? Him and Taylor?”

“Actually, yeah…”

“Nope, it was them.”

“So, you’ve had a threesome with them?”

“Yes, more than once.”

“More than five or six times Casey, hell just about every time it’s all of us.” Zac said.

“Where the hell was I when you decided to have this epiphany Zac?”

“No offense, I wouldn’t have chosen you anyway. Casey expressed interested to Emily and she talked to me. I only agreed to Casey because I knew he wouldn’t tell anyone. Likewise, only very close friends know what we’ve done.”

“Do your brothers know?”

“They do and they don’t care as long as I don’t flaunt it in front of them as Isaac put it. Which I don’t and we’ve told Casey for years now that if he wanted to find someone exclusive, that we’d understand.”

“Years?” Robert asked.

“It was his birthday in 2009. It’s not something we did monthly or even every other month.”

“So…when was the last time?”

“March this year. Robert you don’t have to worry about him leaving.”

“I don’t, I’m just amazed at how well you’ve done to contain this. I mean damn, four years?”

“Again, not many know and who the hell will believe you?” I asked.

He was quite for several minutes before he looked at Zac. “That was you in the video?”

“Video?” Zac asked.

“It was posted online; the two of you denied that it was you and another man.”

Casey started to laugh and Alexander just kind of paused, clearly wondering what was up before he went back to nursing, he was getting close to being done though. Casey clearly got a kick out of it.

“Well, we didn’t lie it wasn’t me and another man.”

“But, it was you? I then presume it was your wife across the desk?”

“No, I was across the desk.” Zac said.

I smiled slightly at how utterly confused Robert looked, that video surfaced now and then and I always giggled because everyone always agreed that was not Zac’s rear end, it was too big too small, not round enough, not perfect and yet I knew damn well it was.

“It was him and Emily. We didn’t know that someone was hacked into the computers and phones. I sent them a gift and when she used it she sent me a video.”

Clarity took over then. “Exactly how much of a freak are you Zac?”

He smiled from the chair. “I image Casey and I are pretty close, he does have some fear of paddles now though.”

“I do only if your wife is holding them.” Casey said.

Robert leaned forward some. “I doubt you know what breast milk taste like, despite your wife breastfeeding your son.”

“Who said I didn’t know? I never said that.”

“Interview, last month, the radio guy asked you point blank if you’d ever tried breast milk from the source or a cup and you said you hadn’t.”

“Do you really think the world needs to know that I have? Interview questions that are personal I reserve the right to lie. It’s not anyone’s
business what I do in my bedroom with my wife or whether or not I have tried breast milk from the source or a cup.”

Casey snorted. “If I had to guess I’d say the source.”

“Much better from the source, but cups are ok.”

“Have you ever tried it Casey? From anyone?”

“I have. I um didn’t quite remember she was breast feeding their son. It was November there was this stripper thing and she was going to
participate and we were trying…I just remember tasting something very sweet. Asked and was reminded. She just didn’t get to join in.”

“Stripper thing?”

“Yeah, it was Zac and Me and…”

“Casey..” I cut him off.

“Oh come on!” Robert said.

“It’s ok. Alexander wasn’t even a month old and sex was just not something Emily could do at the time. We tried. I was over her and another friend pulled me off, he’d apparently came from nowhere. Emily couldn’t be part of it, but after some talking I agreed. He made sure she was taken care of though. I can’t give you his name either.”

“Damn! It’s ok though.”

Alexander was just laying in my arms, mostly asleep so I went ahead and laid him down, stood beside the crib and gently patted his butt until he was asleep. Zac turned the lights off leaving just the TV and the lamp that Casey had been using to read. I sat down across from Robert and he looked nervous, I couldn’t imagine why!

“In a nut shell the three of us have been having sex since 2009. It’s not regularly, it’s not scheduled, and we never told him he couldn’t date or see people. You don’t have to worry, we won’t stop him from leaving and obvious we won’t stop him from having sex with anyone else.”

“Surely, you’d stop him from having sex with me in the same room.”

“No we wouldn’t.” Zac said.

All three of us turned and looked at him. “We wouldn’t?” I asked.

“Nope, well if Alexander was in the room yes. But, otherwise nope, wouldn’t bother me anyway.”

“Emily likes to watch guys jerk off and you like to watch live gay porn? Is this the fucking twilight zone?” Casey asked       

He giggled. “No. I’m just saying it wouldn’t bother me. Clearly I slept through the bathroom sex.”

“You did, I would have except your phone woke me up.”

Robert turned and looked at Casey. “How come you didn’t tell me they were so open to everything?”

“Oh they have limits I am sure; I just haven’t found them yet. Her evilness knows no boundaries as you clearly saw today!”

“Hey, I told him if you were just too terrified not too. Clearly you weren’t that freaked out.”

He took a deep breath. “It was terrifying as fuck but I did enjoy it. Does it mean I’ll be doing that shit all the time? Hell no. Your ass would have to ride the tallest coaster in the world for that to happen.”

“You don’t like coasters?”

“I like some, but not extremely tall ones.”

I saw Zac head to the bathroom and realized it was getting late and we had an early day.

“Hey Casey, is Max still meeting us?”

“Yep. His medical convention is in Minnesota and we’re stopping there.”

I got up and went to get ready for bed myself, inside I wore my gown and Zac stuck to boxers feeling more comfortable, we laid down before they did, I got comfortable and then felt Zac right against me. How he managed to curl himself against me all the way to my feet was beyond me, but I was fine.

Robert smiled. “Ohh…cuddle time.”

“Tease all you want, he’s my personal heater.”

Casey giggled. “Zac stays hot enough to warm up many people.”

He pulled me tightly to him and once the room grew quiet he was asleep. They laid down about eleven and I was asleep a few minutes after the light was off. I did hear his phone, woke me up because he moved away from me. He replied a few times before he curled back up beside me. I’d see whatever was said the next morning.