Forbidden Love - Segment 33

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Segment 33 – Lavender Dreams…
POV: Emily
Word Count: 3036
Warnings:  None


After Taylor and Isaac left the room got very quiet so I laid my head against the wall and eventually fell asleep. It was the hunger that woke me up about 6 along with the slight pain in my neck. He was still asleep, steady heart beat and breathing so I took a moment and ran down to the vending machines for a sandwich, soda, and chips. I returned to the room though so I wouldn’t be gone long. I ate quietly and then noticed that Zac’s phone was blinking from his bag. I got it from the little mesh section and tapped the screen, it was a text message. I should really not read it, but I entered 1234 anyway and found he had changed it. I smiled and tried to think of what he may put in, it was logic though I put in 0716 and it opened. The message was from Kate, but when I opened it, I about dropped the phone. It was not what I expected her to send to someone who she knew was rushed to the hospital. I had never seen Kate naked, but I just assumed the naked vagina I was seeing was hers, although I was certain the dick was not her husband’s. I scrolled up on her name and found several dozen pictures very similar to that, either with or without a participate, along with messages asking if I was still giving it up.

“Fucking bitch.” I mumbled.

I backed out and found he still had my messages from the last time. I left his messages and laid the phone down; Isaac had mentioned he had been writing things on his laptop, could he really have another person on the side besides me? I sat there for 20 minutes before I got his laptop and turned it on, but of course it had a password too. I tried my birthday but that didn’t work. I knew I could lock it if I tried too many times, but I recalled while he was hallucinating the other night he had said lavender dreams, I’d never heard that phrase before so I tried it. The black screen left and it loaded the desktop. The icons were mostly the normal ones, I tried WordPad first for the most recent documents, nothing was there that wasn’t work related. The same went for most every program I opened.

I looked at him lying in the bed, if it wasn’t on the desktop maybe it wasn’t on the computer? I opened up Chrome because he’d been using it lately and went to g-mail, I was intending to check my own e-mail but curiosity got to me and I hit the L key first, the program brought up an e-mail for lavender dreams so I clicked it. The password loaded so and I hovered over the pointer for several moments before clicking login. I prayed this was not someone else. The screen loaded quickly and I saw an inbox with dozens of e-mails here, they were all from him, but none of them had been replied too even though they were all marked as read. I scrolled down to the very first one dated March 21 the subject line had my name. I looked at the name for this account and it was Emily Hanson. I hesitated for a moment, was this is master plan written out, how he would use me and discard me later?
I finally mustered up the courage and clicked the first one and began to read, answering questions I had, answering the doubts, the reasons. Reading the words that he had never spoken to me, but surely wrote down, I read them in order and found one where all he said I love you, over and over and over. There was an e-mail where he said everything he loved about me, everything that made him love me more and more. I was still working on reading when the doctor came in at ten.

“Good morning.” He said.

“Morning.”

“Has he woken up at all?

“No. Is this normal? They checked in the ER and I don’t think he hit his head, but he could have.”

“We did check there was no obvious sign of being hit in the head. His vitals are strong and the medication could be making him sleep. His brothers said he had not slept well so, he could be playing catch up.”

“When you release him, what happens?”

“Well, he’s going to need to rest and take care of himself so he can get better.”

“What if he does not do that?”

“If he doesn’t follow the release notes then it could last longer, get worse, or require a longer stay in a hospital.”

“Ok.”

He checked the bags, checked his fever which was coming down to the 100’s now, he updated the chart and left the room. I looked at him still asleep and then went back to reading. The last e-mail was sent at 2 am the 15^th, when he should have been asleep and when Isaac and Taylor probably were.

Emily,
   I knew you were in the hotel room; it had to be you because no one else could get a key. No one else would have taken my temperature that way either *blush*. I don’t clearly remember you being there but I just felt you and that was enough to make me feel better. I guess I assumed that you would stay and when we got on the bus and we were riding I realized you were not on the bus and I felt like you were just slipping away from me, like I couldn’t stop it.
I should probably not say this now, but you look amazingly hot when you’re trying to build that wall to block me out. Not that I can blame you for even needing too.

Layla told me months ago that I should stay away from you, that I should not continue and I should let it go. She warned me and kept telling me exactly what would happen, that while we both seemed content with being together at work and being together sexually, that eventually you would want more than that and she kept reminding me that I could not give that to you. I was a selfish bastard to believe that you wouldn’t be that way, your entire demeanor changed after my birthday. I really DID want to go to the zoo, I wanted to see every animal and watch your face as you saw the tigers, as you admired the beauty of the world around you. I wanted to take you to the aquarium to see the marine wildlife, to marvel at the sharks and see the fish swimming everywhere. I should have been taking you everywhere, at every chance I got.

  But, I was selfish to think that you’d be happy with what we had forever and when you were standing there in the parking lot yelling at me all I could see was losing you again, of being stupid a second time and as I came back to the bus, as I tried to sleep that night all I could think about was you. Wondered what I had done to cause you to cry that long, to need something to knock you out so you could sleep. As I told my brothers what happened, heard them scold me for it all, all I could think about was what I could do to get you back. At that time, it seemed like nothing would. You refused to talk to me, refused to acknowledge I was there. Then you were in the room and you came when Taylor begged, you did not have too, you could have made them deal with me, but you came and you laid there with me. But, then you walked away again earlier and I just knew you were gone forever…

  I laid in the bed most of the day, wondering what I could say to you, what I could do to let you know that you are all I need, you are
all I wanted. Every worded scenario came to the same conclusion; nothing I say will show you that. When we get home, and I am able to sit up more than ten minutes at a time, I am filing for a divorce from Kate. Because, it is worth losing everything I own, everything I built my life upon, if I could just have you. You are worth the risk, you are worth it even if she takes everything I own, even if she tears 3CG to the ground, you are worth it. Having you there to fall asleep to every night, to wake up to every morning, is worth it. I just hope that you understand and that you will talk to me and listen.

I love you Emily, I have never loved someone so deeply, so completely until you showed up at that meet and greet. I should have never stopped looking for you; I should have searched every corner of the globe until I found you. I will be filing either way, but I really hope you are there when the dust settles…

Love Always & Forever - Zachary

I read the e-mail completely twice and the last two paragraphs another six or seven times. It’s worth losing everything, everything I built my life upon, if I could just have you. There was a deep desire to say these were all fake, but the truth was I couldn’t dismiss them as fake because the words were too raw and the meanings behind them too real. These were not pranks, they were not lies, and this was his way of telling me everything without any risk of her ever hearing or seeing it. But, damn I wish he’d just told me! I was jarred from my thoughts when my phone rang, so I answered.

“Morning Craig.”

“Morning Darling, how is Zac?”

“How did you know and what makes you think I know?”

“Babe, there are videos everyone of him collapsing last night during the show. One was from the front row, and I can see you clearly making it there first. I saw who the first person beside him was; therefore you were not far away.”

“I tried to stop him actually.”

“So, how is he? I am pretty sure he’s not left your sight long.”

I smiled, was I that transparent? “He will probably be bruised from the fall, but otherwise he has a bad case of the flu, dehydrated, and there keeping him for a bit. He’ll have to be sitting up and moving a bit before they will. I am hoping that will be this afternoon.”

“So….you are at the hospital.”

 “I’ve been here all night. Craig, I need your help.”

“With what?”

“His bitch of a wife.  She’s sending him text messages of her having sex with someone else, he needs proof she is cheating on him.”

“But, he cheated on her with you.”

“She can’t prove that no more than he can her.”

“But you said you sent him video’s of you.”

“Undated and no faces, I was careful about that.”

“Ok, so what do you think I can do?”

“Legally, nothing. But there has to be something that we can do?”

“They already hired a PI Emily, Kate’s being followed already.”

“What about cameras? Surely you can do that.”

He did not reply and the line was silent a long time. “Craig? Are you mad about that?”

“No. It’s just that we considered that but Greg would have to sign a release. Honey there really isn’t much we can do. I mean, aside from wiping out everything that proves you two were together so he can file without fear that is about it.”

“Wait, what if you took our phones and computers and wiped them that way? Putting the photos and videos in a locked folder for me,
she would demand to see the phones but if there are no pictures…”

“Then there is no proof and since I am a third party I cannot be summoned, hell even if they tried I have ways. I think that can work some.”

“Has the PI found anything?”

“Yeah, Natalie said Kate is a world class bitch. Evidently she started birth control. Natalie is confused because she said right before Zac left they were actively trying. But, the problem with that is I know where Zac was.” He said.

I laughed, remembering her conversation. “The bitch tried to convince me she was already. She started birth control?”

“Yep.”

I paused for a moment. “I know why she did. Zac’s not having sex with her, so unless she rapes him then if she does get pregnant that is proof she is cheating. I will bet that Zac mentioned that at some point.”

“Probably, I don’t know I don’t put rape past her. Gary’s not the only man she’s sleeping with either, there is another one but the PI said he stays hidden, dark huge glasses and a hat.”

“Who knows who she’s sleeping with. Craig, can you do me a favor though?”

“Anything you want.”

“Can you put cameras in my apartment? In case she decided to trash it or have someone break in.”

“I can, but is that really what you want?”

“Well, wait until after he’s better, I don’t want any proof. But, yes, I would like them to be installed.”

“Ok. I will search for a good brand and get the equipment; you want all rooms but the bathroom?”

“Yes. Including my bedroom, but make that one where I can turn it off.”

“Sure thing.”

I saw Zac’s phone blink so I looked. “Jesus Christ! Kate really is pushing this with these pictures. She just sent him a picture of what I assume is her with some other guys cum on her. Fucking bitch.”

“Are you serious?”

“Yes. I am. Unfortunately, I have seen it.”

“Well, do not worry. I will protect the two of you electronic wise and his brothers are helping him too because really, they think the two of you are made for one another.”

“Thank you.”

“No problem. Take care of yourself too Emily, along with him.”

 I hung-up, sat back in the chair. If he went home to Kate, odds are he wouldn’t take care of himself, she won’t and he would end up back in the hospital in possible worse condition. I finally called Taylor’s number.

“Odd, I was just about to call you.” He said.

“I have good timing then.”

“Evidently, have the doctors come in?”

“Yes, he came in and recommended rest and lots of it.”

“I called out parents first thing this morning, mom demanded an update so I called and got one. I just wanted to make sure they told you. I’m just afraid he won’t get that, he won’t bother when he gets home.”

“She will make it worse Taylor, you know she will.”

“He won’t come home with either of us, he’ll claim Ezra and with them both being pregnant too. Zoe is already sick too.”

“He’s coming home with me.”

He was quite, almost too quite.

“I know it’s probably not the right thing but I will make sure he follows the doctor’s orders. Make sure he eats, sleeps, has plenty of liquids and that he does get better. Taylor, I cannot send him home to her knowing she doesn’t give a shit about him. She hasn’t even asked if he was ok, or awake. Has she called either of you?”

“No.”

“She sent him text messages of her having sex with I assume Gary. No faces and it has been going on a few weeks.”

“She did what?”

“Yeah, my thought exactly. We all know he won’t get better there.”

“I’ll call mom, we have a few aunts that are out of town and we can say he’s there. I agree with you, if he goes home he will end up back in the hospital.”

“Ok.”

“So, the buses are going home tonight. Mr. Bowman and Isaac are going back, but I am staying here. The three of us will fly back home as soon as he’s released. Is there anything you need off the bus before it leaves?”

“No. My bag has a few suits, charger, and all. The paperwork was already filed.”

“Ok. Isaac and I are coming up before they leave; he said he wanted to see him before heading home.”

“Ok. Um, dumb question he’s never mentioned doctors much. If he does wake up before you get here, will he be ok?”

“Good question and the answer is no. He’s been skittish of needed so he may not react well to the IV. He’s tolerated them before but he’s just not crazy about them, and considering he may not know why he’s there it could be worse.”

“He never mentioned that to me, but then again I never really asked about fears from doctors.”

“He doesn’t tell many people actually.”

“Ok. I’ll see you guys in a little while.”

We hung up and I got curious, so I did go through his phone. There were dozens of pictures of me, some I knew he had taken and others I had not known about. The very first one I stared at for a while. I have wanted to touch you for four years. I ran my thumb over the image he had taken; I was asleep in his arms. There was one of us together, him awake and me asleep. I hadn’t even known they existed. Either he had deleted or never had picture of Kate on his phone. The videos I had sent to him were also there, I couldn’t believe he kept them. I shut his laptop down and turned the phone off, seeing as he was still completely out I went back down to the cafeteria quickly, another sandwich, chips and a drink. I made a mental note to ask Taylor to bring something decent with him that afternoon. I ate the sandwich, but waited on the chips.